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A little neglectful, a little successful. 

I haven’t been here much.

It seems like every update is a mass update.
Things are going blissully well, and I’m extremely grateful. 


My anxiety, though it be the plauge in my life, has been much more manageable. (Here’s a few things to thank for that )

  • I have started to begin each day with a good thought. Something I am grateful for, or a positive affirmation (there are lots of apps that offer daily affirmations).
  • Speaking of apps I have been utilizing my phone as a wellness tool. 30 day gratitude challenges,  meditation apps, I have an app that talks you through breaths during an anxiety or panic attack. There’s resources out there that offer great wellness solutions and actually trying and sticking to them has changed my life.
  • I stopped allowing negative thoughts and feelings to enter my space. Worry is like a rocking chair has been a lovely motto for me. If I can’t fix change or do anything about a problem, I stop worrying about it. If I can do something to fix change or better the situation, then I do that.
  •  I have gotten better at stopping and checking in with myself. Taking a break and reflecting on how things are going several times throughout the say has been majorly successful.
  • I got a job that I actually love. Work is my happy place and I absolutely mean that. No matter what industry you are in find something you love. A fantastic boss and helpful strong coworkers are a blessing.

I don’t get to spend as much time with my husband or my kids, but we have more money incoming which means we have the funds to do more fun family outings.
More income also means a little spoilage for myself.

I’ll post a better picture when it heals and has lightened up. But, by that time I plan to have the diadem, sorting hat, and a few other little odes to my obsession as well.
Until next time loves.

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Transparancey is Trendy

I’ve let my brain control every aspect of my life for far too long. You’re reading this probably thinking to yourself “..uhm, duh..” but it’s so much more than simple decision making, simple thoughts. When I say it controls me, I mean the irrationality. When you live with an imbalance, a disorder, a disease, whatever it may be- everything becomes so much harder.

When you are socially anxious even things as simple as checking the mail or getting grocieries is taxing. 

When you have PTSD from abuse it’s a constant war with your own thoughts. It’s trying to sort out the lies you’ve been made to believe about yourself, from what’s real about you. 

When you have anxiety it is being endlessly irriational and believing that irrationality. It’s over thinking and over analyzing. 

When you have depression it’s fighting to be okay and brief moments of solace or distraction followed by being swallowed whole by your thoughts. 

When you add all of those together you get me. For two years this has owned me. 

Today I’m taking my power back. 

I’ve decided to open up with raw transparancey.

 I’ve decided to share my own daily Pits (the dirty, bad, and hard). As well as my Peaches (all the sweetness, the fruity goodness, what keeps me going ). Because I can fight through all this negative in my head with the beauty around me and I can get “better”.

I can’t feel like this forever.

I REFUSE to live like this anymore.

I challenge you, even if your life is full of Pits, to find and focus on the Peaches. 

Be well friends.